Still the same

I keep asking, why this thing happens again.
I'm feel like kind of fed up with that thing, keeps happening again
I've been mad
I keep denying
I keep asking it to stop
I keep thinking why it happens again

But then I realised
Allah give me this challenge, again, because maybe I didn't succeed it during back then
Yeah, I realised that I just keep blaming why it happen, without realising that actually, that things happen just to make me closer to Him, just to make me learn something from it.
Yes, I didn't learn anything from it, during back then.
Hence, it happens again.
From now on, I just hope that I accept this challenge with my heart, I want to redha with this thing.
I want to be better by this challenge
I want to be professional
I will prioritize my life
I will give commitment accordingly
I want to be more focus on my priorities, which are among of them are to be a better person, to be a pious person, to love Allah more, and to beloved by Allah 💪😉

Jangan mudah putus asa

06 Mac 2017
I felt very down and fed up

Then, I talk to several people
I asked their opinions
I asked someone who has passed what I am facing right now
She told me to not give up easily
She told me to repeat many times for each topics
She told me to stay strong
She told me to bear in mind that it will be fine, as long as I don't give up
She told me that it is possible
She told me to find effective ways of learning
I saw sincerity in her eyes
I hear willing to help from her voice

Despite from that, she also sometimes do feel stressed
She told me not to "layan" it
She told me to do somethings else, like chatting with friends or jogging etc
She told me to move forward instead of standing, worrying at one point.
💪💪💪